old boyfriend and a toilet cabin

I met up with Greg at the New England aquarium, which was also a sleep away camp.  We were walking in through the entryway, which was also like the Museum of Science, and we were holding hands, and I kept hugging him.  But every time I touched or smelled him, I would have these flashbacks to being with him, and feel like I wanted to be with him.  So I kept telling him that we shouldn't touch or hold hands because it isn't fair, and they aren't real feelings anyway, they're memories, and he was just smiling at me, like "yeah, okay, you totally want me."

But then I had to go to the bathroom (of course) and the bathroom was a one-room cabin with toilets lined up along one side of the room, just right next to each other, no walls, or partitions or anything. But all the toilets had little desks in front of them, with books and magazines and activities. And someone was in charge of the bathroom and was taking notes on our bathrooming.  And it turns out everyone had bowel issues, so we needed to have this special bathroom where people could help us.  And I wanted to go back and be with my group, but I kept needing the bathroom, so I just stayed in there while everyone else had fun.

Dan Eagan stole my bird calendar/murder on the farm

We were at the Stromae show, which was in an old theater. We saw another show there first and I had to take the elevator and it kept taking me to the wrong place.  Then the show was over, but we did t get to see him and we had to leave and I wanted a national Audubon calendar I had seen in the bathroom.  It was like an advent calendar, when you opened the little door for that day it made the sound of bird song. But Dan Eagan had taken it and wouldn't give it to me.

Then at my house, only my house was bigger and nicer and down at the bottom of the hill near the garden, we found a person had been murdered. We called her Cynthia, but I don't know who she was. They just left her head and one forearm and hand on the front step.  We had no clue what had happened to her, so we asked the body or her spirit (?) to tell us what happened, and the hand pointed to something, a bag Brian had kept that had a mutilated squirrel we found.  Then we remembered someone had also done the same thing to a chicken and left it there.  We still couldn't figure out who it was.  Then it was Brian that had been murdered and I was so afraid whoever it was was going to come back for the kids or me.

Apes in my yard

There were two apes in my yard- similar to gorillas, but a little more human-like.  I was watching them from my porch, (which was over the patio and awesome!) and all of a sudden, they started freaking out and shaking the trees and making scary gorilla noises.  I grabbed my phone and was taking video until I realized Darwin was out there too, and he was getting all worked up and starting to chase them.  Then they were chasing him, and me, and I quickly slipped into the house and shut the door just as one was trying to get in behind me.  I was really scared for Darwin, and I walked over to the front door to try to get him in. Then I saw that he was already in and I was so relieved until I saw that one of the apes came in with him and was climbing up the stairs.  I said "no! Why did you let it in?" And he said (really, he was talking to me) something about the ape coming in first and Darwin couldn't get him out.  The ape seemed settled down, and Darwin was calm, too, but I was still so scared. 

Blood on the shower curtain

Jayme had  been murdered, stabbed to death.  I was so upset and confused.  Whoever cleaned up didn't clean up everything, and there was still streaks of blood in the shower, like psycho or some shit.  At some point we had identified the killer and my consciousness zoomed in on his face, like i was studying it, and he was young, and I have no idea who he is or was, my mind just MADE UP this person... he had freckles and straight brown  hair that hung kind of awkwardly.

Old one I found in my phone

This was from August 14, but I just found the note in my phone:

Making out with Tom cruise in a carnival ride (like salt and pepper shaker.  I wasn't scared, even though I wasn't sure how to stop the ride). 

Went to dinner with friends, had no clothes. Wasn't really concerned that I didn't have any clothes on, didn't feel embarrassed or exposed or anything, but I did feel like I was making other people uncomfortable with my nakedness.  Finally left to find clothes and Greg L followed me.  Taking on the way back, walking through LA/upstate New York? He said its so beautiful up here I just want to buy a house near Binghamton.  I said don't you live in Syracuse?

Feeding wildlife

I was driving at night and saw a bunch of injured animals.  They were all huddled together on a blanket on the side of the road.  I had raw steak in my car (?), so I tried feeding them, but they wouldn't take the meat from me.  Then the guy I was with started giving them raw hamburger and they were taking it.  I started giving everyone pieces of steak, and I was happy they were eating, but then they started getting aggressive about getting the food, surrounding me and snapping and stuff, and I was afraid they were going to attack me.  All of a sudden I realized it was a stupid idea to go into a mob of wild animals with a bunch of raw meat.

Goats and horses

I went to stay at a house that jay and Kerri were renting.  All of the neighbors who goats and they walked them on leashes on the sidewalk.  I was trying to walk into town and the goats were eating my clothes and butting me and I was getting mad and the goat owners didn't understand why I was mad, they thought it was cute.  And then a guy was feeding a goat a beer with a funnel.  And he was like "he loves beer! Watch how drunk he gets!" And I walked away because I didn't think it was fair to the goat or funny. 
Then I was at a hardware Store behind my house and I asked the guy who worked there to recommend a good bird seed and he sold me a $50 bag.  And told me it lasts for months.  I didn't believe him but I just went with it.  Then I came home and you were riding a horse in my back yard- across the creek on the path that goes by the pigs.  There were two horses- a friend of yours was riding the other one.  We had rescued them from somewhere, or they were wild? But you guys could totally ride them and we realized they had been ridden before.  Then they started doing these fancy dressage moves, and you guys were laughing and totally... Delighted I guess is the right word.  

Secret NASA Shack

At a friend's house, party going on.  In a quiet room I noticed a curled up snake, someone's pet, on a bookshelf.  I ...put it on my shoulder?  Shit, i forget, but it got hurt somehow and I felt really guilty, put it back on the shelf, where it somehow turned into a squirrel??  Later I realized the people at the party had a blase attitude toward the safety of their pets, so at least I got away with it.
Then I was riding a tandem bike, by myself, through some Cambridge-like town.  It started raining.
Then I was invited to go someplace with people(?)... we got into a seaplane and took off, until the seaplane dove and went straight for the water, like it wasn't going to land correctly and we were about to crash - me and the girls in the plane started freaking, but then the pilot goes, "no, I got this, I got this"... and pulled up and landed kind of nicely (actually, maybe that's when I realized it was actually a sea plane not a regular plane).  We chided the pilot for not telling us before hand and making us think we were going to crash.
We entered a small shack, looked like it was across from the OB Harbor... inside, there was a huge contraption, someone was doing experiments or tech inventions, not for NASA but it was real high tech.  We were all going to get a chance to get in this machine, two at a time, strap yourself in and you go upside down and twirl around, kind of in place, as if it was to train astronauts?  The machine could tell you how scared you were, measure that somehow.  I went in last, by myself although everyone else went two at a time.  The guy told me I got a 5 minute ride, longer than the others, and I was lucky.
After we all tried the machine, I looked at pictures some of the people took with their phone - the pictures were awesome and we all looked like we were having a great time.
Then we were each given gloves and a bottle of windex, and were supposed to clean every surface in the shack.